Hello my loves!!!😍 Today, I just wanted to write a post because I wanted to thank so many for the birthday wishes when I told only a select few!😁 It really made my day and this community never seizes to amaze me!💖
I am going to be honest and say that this is one of the worst and one of the best birthdays that I ever had in my life.
It’s the best because I now have you. Of course my kids always make things better but it’s better because of you.💖
Celebrating my birthday is not the event or day that most people have mine has always been a curse to me. To be real and honest, my 6th birthday was the first day of of my torturous abuse so every year was a “special” occasion and my birthday was always the day I got it the worst of worst because “I was getting too old” for my abuser. Everytime I had a birthday it made me less valuable to him financially and to him for his personal reasons. I am not going to go into details because that may trigger some but it was a day I dreaded my whole life.
Not only did I try to escape this day altogether and would freak out any time someone would buy me a gift or try to do something for me, when I escaped it there was always something bad that happened that day that just justified that birthdays for me were the worse. Everyone I love I tried to go all out but for me, we avoided it like the plague.
After reading Michel’s sweet post last night and seeing how many people cared about me, it just overwhelmed me with love. Today even as I dreaded this day all year and looked at all the gray in my hair and knew my 20s were behind me, I felt loved. I really do. I feel loved even though I have no idea how I am going to pay my electric bill and my trusty water cut off but it doesn’t matter as much because for the first time in my life, I know that there is people in my life that haven’t seen me in person and hear my flaws but all they give is love in return so for my 30th birthday with your help I am saying fuck my tradition, I am going to celebrate making it another year and coming this far and I owe it to each and every one of you. I can’t thank you enough, lovelies! You ROCK!🤩💖👑💎