Hey everyone!!!😍 I know I have been gone on and off and too long but I hope that I am able to bounce back into the community with my blogging habits before life turned disarray. I feel really bad that I was out of the community so long and didn’t show nearly as much love as was shown to me but hope to be back to my supportive self.
If you guys will accept me, of course.😕 After the year I had and the sudden battles I had to face, I drove myself into this deep depression and it got ugly. I would barely move or even brush my hair, it was bad. I isolated myself from the world and was ashamed at what people would think of me after all the trials. I was in too much despair and was just a zombie going through the moments at many times when I was getting over my grief but what I didn’t stop doing even when I was battling with my vision and hearing was leave the love of reading behind. I started working on my first novel and would listen to a book on TTS every day and it got me through that “dark night of the soul” and I finally confessed to my Dr how depressed and how bad my grief was and I was out on different medications. So with the help of family, my Dr and the love of reading I started to live slowly but after reading the supportive comments from my blog a week and half ago something snapped and I started to strangle my hair it took literally the whole week!!!😂 , I started laughing with my kids and family, I’ve taken steps in so many ways and feel more alive than I have in the past year! All because of all the support, the likes, the comments and donations and gifts. I felt alive and felt that I was foolish to let life and such great friends pass me by. I’m still not 100% but I am getting there and I am sorry if anyone felt I didn’t care because I did. I was just not myself, honestly. But now I realize how much I missed your faces, how much books I need to review😨, and how much I missed all of your blogs and the community I was able to share with y’all! So hopefully, I am welcome back and I am able to get back in my groove because I really have missed this community more than words could ever express. I am so thankful for every single one of you! Also life has improved, I am working again from home some and my family is doing a bit better. We are still behind on many bills but we are at least afloat and not on the verge of our assets being kicked to the curb! So overall I have been blessed in so many ways, I just needed time to get over my grief and get my shit together. I will be hopping along as well while I have a device with net!😍 And it will stay that way because I believe things can truly go nowhere but up from here. Even though there are bumps and wrinkles to straighten out still, I will survive!!!😍 *sings Aretha Franklin*