My Months of the Battle With Coronavirus

**Post will contain my views on things other may disagree on. I try not to get too political on my blog to keep peace and have dealt with people whom are really disrespectful of what I have to say just because I believe different. This is just a warning that nothing said is personal and just my own views.

First of all I want to say my thoughts and prayers are with everyone during this difficult time. The World has gone nuts and has effected us all in one way or another and hopefully we will see the light at the end of the tunnel sooner than later. When the coronavirus was first announced to the USA it was portrayed as something that was going to go away quickly and was harmless like a germ or something that only effects very few people. With chronic illnesses & being disabled, I stayed at home pretty much 24/7 when I heard about the virus. It wasn’t worth the risk and hey, I was battling agoraphobia anyways. I leave my house once a month to go to the doctor to get a checkup and refills on my medication that is it. I got sick with a sinus infection months ago but was terrified to go to the doctor to get checked but that cleared up but then I had loved ones getting sick. I would hear of their progress but couldn’t visit them because of Covid-19 so I had to sit and wait and that tore me up inside and out. Well they fought there hardest but I ended up losing 3 loved ones under the age of 50. I was drowning in grief and terrified. Everyone in my house stayed at home as much as possible and followed every safety procedure we could but it turned out to not be enough. While we hear the leader of the US spouting off that maybe drinking and/or injecting hand sanitizer might help, taking off all restrictions of protection, saying that 99% of people that get coronavirus is no big deal, seeing racist remarks, trolling the internet calling everyone names, & contracting the coronavirus and saying it’s a “blessing”?! Like really? It’s a blessing you infected people with a deadly virus, wow. Also speaking of this miracle drug that is not FDA approved. Well thanks for bragging how you have this medication available to you while your people are suffering. Anyways back to what was happening with me while this was all going on this month. Well while going through grief and absolutely terrified, I woke up in the middle of the night and felt like I couldn’t breathe. My cough was horrible and was horribly congested that no over the counter medication would work for me. Every time I laid down I felt like I was drowning no matter what position I was in. My fears became reality and was put on quarantine for coronavirus. I couldn’t even understand how I contracted the virus?! But for me it wasn’t this blessing that Mr. Trump speaks about. Nope, I’m sorry I didn’t have the luxury that he did. 99% of us don’t. I was not hospitalized mostly due to my absolute fear of dying in a hospital but was put on breathing treatments right away and two steroid inhalers for every day. Before getting this meds, I was sure I was going to die and was even telling loved ones my final wishes for my kids if I met my end and I am 32 years old! When I got on the treatments, it only took the edge away. The wheezing was there constantly and my fever twerked around whenever it felt the time was right. So feeling a little better, surprise! Others in my household started getting sick!😢 Two weeks into the virus(two weeks ago) I thought things were better. Surprise! I had 3 seizures that were caused by the coronavirus. It doesn’t help that I am epileptic. My family thought they got better too but my son’s father has type 1 diabetes and ended up being rushed and admitted to the hospital and now has his kidneys injured and acting up along with other conditions that are all new. Well two weeks have passed and I look at the numbers of the preventable deaths in the US and it really breaks my heart. I was one of the lucky ones. I am still wheezing and on treatments due to post coronavirus concerns but am now negative for it. But the realization that I could have these concerns from having the virus for the rest of my life is traumatizing. I homeschool my kids because I fear this virus so much and see how teachers are being forced to work in these conditions or they have to sign resignation papers. It’s all just ridiculous and scary. I don’t know how the President can spout on how for 99% of people it’s no big deal. So going to the hospital is no big deal? Losing work is no big deal? Our fear is no big deal? I’m sorry for this rant but know I am not the only one that feels this way and their people whom have way worse stories with this virus. Over 200,000+ people just in the U.S. dead. It’s a nightmare worldwide and our leaders need to wake up! All the time spent on trolling the internet could go to figuring out a way to help the people! Whatever you believe, wherever you are from, & whatever your situation, please take this virus serious and stay safe! Also a big thanks to all our frontline healthcare workers, teachers & all those that are out there doing what they have to with these big risks! Love & Light sent to all…

26 Comments on “My Months of the Battle With Coronavirus

  1. So sorry to hear such bad news, dear Dani. I was very ill for the first time in years, and eventually got tested for Covid-19 last week, convinced that I had it. The result was negative that time, but I am still being super-careful. I hope that things calm down for all of us soon, but this virus isn’t going away, that’s for sure.
    Take care, honey.
    Best wishes, Pete. xx

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  2. I do hope things get better for you Dani, it’s a frightening world we are living in, I still can’t get my head round it all! Stay safe, take care of you and yours, and thank you for sharing your experiences xx

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  3. I’m so sorry for your losses, Dani, but I am thankful you are still fighting for recovery and doing your best for your loved ones. Keep fighting the good fight and giving voice to who cannot be heard. We need to understand the impact of this illness everywhere! xxxxx

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    • Thanks so much, Book Sister! I put no stock in what that man says! The stuff he is saying is giving false hope and is hurting the American people. It’s just so horrible but I am being extra cautious. I hope you are doing well and stay safe, my friend.❤

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  4. As nice as it is to hear from you again, I’m so incredibly sorry to hear about everything that you have been going through😢 I’m glad things are at least a little bit brighter now, but I wish I could do something for you. If you ever need to talk you know where you can find me. I’ll always be here for you😘

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  5. I’m so sorry to hear about the health issues you and your family have been going through, and my condolences on your losses. I know I get mad every time I go out and see people without masks even though there are signs up, but they feel emboldened because of lawsuits and of course Mr. Lets-Try-Bleach.

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  6. I am so sorry for your loss Dani! And I agree that virus is scary and I fear every day catching it even if we too take all the precautions. And I am enraged when I hear such speech about the blessing etc too. I hope everyone gets better!

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    • Thanks so much, Sophie.❤ I agree, it really enrages me the things that are said and if your under a certain age your fine, nope! This virus is killing so many. It’s great you are staying as safe as possible.❤💛❤

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  7. Oh Dani, I am so sorry that you went through that with your own health battles and the loss of loved ones. Sending you hugs and good vibes. I pray that things get better for you.

    And yes, we need more seriousness especially from the leaders. Trump’s utterances about Corona are so unfortunate.

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