How My Christmas Turned Out To Be Amazing


Hey lovelies! As many of you know it’s been a rough time for me lately with my physical and emotional health in turmoil. I also have been battling to overcome some recent trauma and family issues. With all that and being stuck on bed rest because of all the seizures and injuries I have received recently, I just wanted to state that my life is blessed and totally worth it. After much time of reflection and emotions even to the point of suicidal thoughts, I had a sort of an epiphany. Well I had much encouragement along the way thanks to Kim aka My Book Sister, Trang aka My Blogger Babe Crush, Michel💖, Pete, Adrienne, Fraggle, Sophie and many more of you, I was able to get through this and see how truly blessed I am. Not only do I finally have a support system thanks to all of you guys and I’m sorry I couldn’t list you all because there are so many of you and you all are so amazing but I have finally been able to get in the holiday spirit!!! Yay!

After all this reflection, I let a lot go. I let go some of the pain and anxiety. For once, I finally really enjoyed seeing my children be happy. Of course, I always want them happy but I am always thinking about the “what ifs” and worrying about them instead of truly enjoying it.

I don’t go to church but there is a church right next to my house. I was sitting at home worrying how was I going to pay for my kids to have a good Christmas for my kids and how was I even going to pay for the medication I needed to keep me alive. I felt so overwhelmed that I felt like I was suffocating. I was to the point of asking God “Why do you let this keep happening to me?”. Well the pastor of the church by my house randomly stopped by and asked us if we wanted a big box of food and I accepted and was very thankful for his kindness and this warmed my heart some but still didn’t know what I was going to do but at least my kids were going to be fed.

Well the same pastor comes back to my house and he brings us gift cards equaling to about 400$ USD in gift cards for Walmart and he had certain ones for the kids and even one for us adults so we could get stuff we needed.

I literally broke down with my thankfulness to this unknown man. I was able to get my kids the gifts they wanted and was able to get the necessities I needed for my house;laundry soap, toliet paper and etc. I felt so overwhelmed with emotions and finally felt hope, after so long. To make things even better a close friend said he would help and pay for my mandatory expensive medication! I still have pending doom financially and have other meds I need but my mandatory and at the moment needs were met! Yay! I was over the moon! I mean, I have never been blessed like this before and just couldn’t believe it. I found hope. Through my debilitating pain and my scary circumstances I finally had hope. I looked at my children and my heart expanded even more. My daughter Zoey has been helping me and telling me how much she loves me. I even told her “I’m sorry I’m so weird” and she cut me off with a big hug saying “You’re not too weird for me.” My son Gabriel has been giving me hugs several times a day telling me “I hope you feel better Mommy.” My youngest Vincent just tugged at the strings of my heart. He was close by when I had a bad seizure and he freaked out and someone took him out of the room while it was happening. He screamed and kicked everyone until he was allowed to come and see for his self that I was alright and then he hugged me and rubbed my back all at 2 years old.

I know this post might be all sappy and I don’t want to bring anybody down. What I am really trying to say that through everything I found hope and my children’s love carried me through with their amazing LOVE! I was blessed with a way to give them an AMAZING Christmas but I also have been blessed with all of your support. For the first time in years, I am truly excited for Christmas tomorrow and I hope that each and every one of you has a great holiday whatever that may be! I thank you for reading my post and I’m sorry if I mixed things up I’m a tad emotional, but thank you so much for all your support and believing I would make it through because I finally am making it!😄🎁📚💖

Yesterday the kids opened gifts from their grandmothers and other assorted family. I wanted to share these photos of them and show you what has fullfilled my heart and has given me pure happiness. Please everyone have a safe and a Merry Christmas!🎄💖🎁🎀

My daughter Zoey and I.💖🎄🎁

My handsome son Gabriel!🎁

Zoey and Gabriel together!💖

This photo is my favorite of them because it shows their personalities.😄

Zoey thinks she’s grown! But she’s my amazing little Diva!💖👠👑🎀

Monkey wanted to drive the car!🚘🐒😄

My almost 2 year old Vincent a.k.a Chunky Monkey.💖🐒

Present Time!🎁🎁🎁

His excitement is priceless.😍🎁🎄

Yay for presents!!!🎁💖🎁💖

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  1. May the sweet magic of Christmas
    Wrap you with love and warmth
    Bless you with a long and healthy life
    May your heart glow with cheer and
    May love spread to all near and dear.

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  2. Merry Christmas Dani! Never give up! God is good and saw to your needs! You don’t have to go to church to pray. He listens no matter where you are. I don’t mean to get preachy on you, but I’ve been were you are and it’s scary I know. Stay strong my friend and remember it’s the little things….🎅🎄🎅🎄⛄⛄

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  3. I was just about to head off to sleep but decided to check in one more time at WordPress to see if there were any new posts. I’m so glad I did. You wrote in this post that you did not want to bring anyone down by writing this. Sweet Dani, you have achieved the exact opposite. This is a post that pretty much embodies the spirit of Christmas. I am honestly going to admit (and not ashamed to admit it either) that I just literally had to blink back a few tears, because that is what this post did with me. And rest assured they are tears of happyness. Your story and your battles pretty much should encourage everyone that might at one point lose hope. To never, ever give up, no matter what. Because you are seriously without a doubt one of the strongest persons I have ever met in my life.
    I am glad with my entire heart that something as beautiful as this happened to you. And the pictures of your own and your kid’s happyness truly brings a serious smile to my face.
    If this post doesn’t bring anyone into the Christmas spirit, I don’t know what will. I am more than happy for you, and with every ounce of strength in me I wish you and your children the happiest Christmas you have ever had in your life. God knows you deserve it. Bless you sweet Dani, for being such an incredibly beautiful soul 😘😍😊❤️

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      1. Thank you, for your beautiful post, and sharing such an amazing story 😘 I had a great Christmas thank you so much for asking. How about yourself? Hopefully it all went as wonderful as you have hoped? 😘

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      2. Hmm, well like I said before: I will always worry about you, but I am glad that your kids were so happy and that you feel blessed. I truly hope with all my heart that you are going to feel better soon. You are in my thoughts and prayers 😘❤️😊

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  4. This story is like a fairytale, with its happy ending, and delighted children. It can give anybody hope that sometimes life just works out, and good things can happen, when you least expect them.
    It is the essence of an old-fashioned Christmas, and will lift the spirits of anyone who reads it.
    I’m very happy for you and your family, Dani.
    Best wishes as always, Pete. x

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  5. What a wonderful heart-lifting, spirit-raising post, Dani. I’m so happy things have worked out so well and your kids get to have a wonderful Christmas. Loved seeing the photos of them looking so happy.

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  6. Well Dani you made me cry. Sad tears then happy tears. I always feel it’s so unfair when I see that I have so much when others just.. don’t. I wish I could have a magic wand and erase all the misery in the world…
    Now let’s not get “sappy” like you said and focus on the bright side. I’m so happy that pastor could help you as well as your friend with your meds. In Europe we are truly blessed with our healthcare system (in my country at least) and we don’t always see it. I will appreciate it in the future, promise! Your kids are real cuties and they are good kids. I will cross my fingers that other little miracles or acts of kindness keep coming your way to ease your days and make your kids smile. Sending you all the positive thoughts that I can and lots of hugs.

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    1. You are so kind and amazing Sophie!!!💖🎁💖🎁 Having you as a friend is a great present!😊 I didn’t want to make you sad!!!😓 Unfortunately with my health conditions Medicaid will only cover so much they pay 3500-4500 a month with all my meds and appointments but Im sure they strike a deal even though I have zero income because I am bedridden 80 percent of the time I am expected to pay for 500 – up to a thousand a month to keep going because they don’t want to cover this or that and then we have Trump trying to cut another trillion off medicaid and disability. I have been waiting 3 years for disability and still havent received even a hearing date. I was turned down twice already so have to go to a hearing 80 percent of people get turned down and have to go to hearings and wait it out I guess cause they think we will give up or just kick the bucket from lack of income and care. I really don’t understand why people want to come to America illegally its not really worth it. Sigh. But on top of all this I have 3 other disabled adults that co parent with me in my house that make ways to help me but we are barely hanging on and very far behind. But I am sorry I had a rough day and didn’t mean to ramble. Gosh I’m sorry sweetie where did my spirit go temporarily! Sometimes I guess its good to rant about the government! I was blessed and seeing my kids faces was priceless. I am so thankful and I am holding on girl! Don’t be sad! Think happy thoughts and do happy dances!!!💃💃💖💖 I hope you and your family had an amazing Christmas and it was filled with joy!🎄❄☃🎁 I’m sure your kids had a great Christmas! Yay!!! 🤗🌹💐🌻

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    2. I hope I didn’t come off rude with that random rant Sophie! I’m so sorry the meds had me so groggy and was coming off one so it had me all sick. So sorry and your comment was so sweet!!! Thanks so much for all your support my friend. You are such a sweet and amazing person!

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  7. You’re worried about bringing everyone down?! Dani! This is what the spirit of Christmas is all about! I’m beyond thrilled that you got some much needed and deserved help. And the looks on yours and your precious children’s faces are priceless! I’m praying that this upturn is just the beginning for you my friend. Merry Christmas! XOXOXOXOXO🤗😙🤗😙🤗😙🤗😙🎄🤶🏻🎅🏻

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    1. Awww…. thanks so much Kim!!! You are the BEST and are LOVED so much!💖 Thanks for all your support and LOVE! I was truly blessed this Christmas. The unknown kindness truly brought tears to my eyes!💖💖💖 Merry Christmas to you Beautiful lady and to Tom as well!!!🎄🎁❤ ☃🤗💙I hope you two had a nice and restful Christmas as a family!🤗 Unfortunately I was in bed asleep the most of the day because had a rough night and morning but was hapoy to see the kids open all their presents and their faces again! Such a blessing!💙💖💙💖🎁🎄🎁🎄Xoxoxo

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  8. Merry Christmas Dani to you and your family. I wish many blessings for you as you continue on your road. Your post brought happy and sad tears to my eyes. I am glad to know your support system works! Keep on shining. You and your family are worth it!

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    1. Thanks so much! I am blessed. It has been a hard 4 years since being in remission but I’ve made it this far so I’m a tough cookie. I’m so sorry you were alone on Christmas.😓 I got to see my kids open their presents but ended up back in bed sick after that but I have to focus on the small things!😄🎄🎁

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      1. When my dad was sick, we knew any moment couldve been his last, we renamed it golden moments, cherish them, it is important. Stay strong… we are all here to help one another.

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    1. I see you are planning to prepare a post on another blogger. I wanted to let you know, I am a professional piano player and I sing on the highest levels of performance. I Hope I will have the honor to be included on your blog too!!

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  9. OMG DANII 😍❤️ This post practically GAVE ME TEARS (Im not one to easily cry soo..) I’m just so happy for you and your family, seeing these pictures and your powerful message made me feel good and hope I can hug all your family right now tbh ❤️🎄!! I thank you for the friendship we have formed and hopefully 2018 will be even greater ! 💕 Your strenght and love mean everything to me. STAY AWESOME MY BLOGGER BABE ❤️

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  10. Dani!! I don’t know how I’m so behind on your posts *face palm* I guess I kind of distanced myself from WordPress over the holiday too, and just enjoyed my family (and the busy craziness that came along with it!) But, I want to wish you a late Merry Christmas, and an early New Year too! I’m so in love with this pastor guy for giving so much… And, your kidoes are ADORABLE!!! Hope you are feeling well 🙂 I’m sending lots of love and healing vibes your way!! 🙂

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    1. Thanks so much Didi!!!❤❤❤❤ I am so behind on everyone’s WordPress as well! No worries! I hope you guys had a lovely Christmas!😍🤗 I know I had to make sure to get him a nice thank you card and all of us signed it and the kids went and visited them and said thank you with us in person as well. It was AWESOME and I am so blessed by this!!!❤❤😍

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      1. I had that battle recently with my kids! Lol. We sent a 60 pound package of kids stuff and adult and kids books to this struggling family I know. My kids have too much stuff and even though we are struggling I still always tell them it’s always important to give to the less fortunate. When we bless others the universe or God will bless us in return and I made sure to tell them I was right when the pastor blessed us! Lol. That’s so sweet of you donating their toys but I know how difficult it is with the kiddos. May the force be with you sister.

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  11. Dani I send you a huuuge virtual hug, I hid during the holidays in my little cave of safety, but now Im out again. Im wishing that you have a great 2018, full of blessings and new beginnings.

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