Sorry For My Absence, A Question & An Update

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Hey lovelies! I know that I have barely popped in over the last year and I will admit I am quite ashamed that every time I thought I could make a 100% come back, things didn’t happen as planned. I know everyone in the World of Blog(really, everyone in the world) is having troubled times and I hate to write this out to explain about me when I haven’t been the supportive friend and blogger I know I should have been to all of you, my lovelies! And damn! I know you guys have been there at some of the worst of times! I really am sorry for not being around but life has turned into one helluva tornado and has twisted and turned until there were many times I thought I was going to give up but for my kids, family, & friends I still have hope for brighter days even if that light of hope is quite dim at times. I have lost several loved ones to covid-19 and experienced the virus first hand while grieving. Unfortunately, coronavirus has led to me having multiple seizures while I was infected and battling for my life with it but the crummy part is once I finally test negative for the virus after a month and a half, unfortunately, the health problems didn’t end then, they escalated. I was finally making some peace with my grief but post-covid-19 health problems hit me with a bang! My epilepsy worsened and have been having seizures a couple times a week since and honestly the anxiety and fear from that alone has been deeply overwhelming. I feel blessed because I have help with my kids through this whole mess and while on bed rest and get help with them while they go to school online. Of course as many people whom have faced many struggles, that wasn’t the only thing I had to contend with. My children’s father Thomas(which I have talked about his health in the past) went through many health emergencies(not related to covid-19). He was hospitalized on and off and of course without enough money or insurance they just told him they couldn’t figure out what was going on but seemed well enough. Well the first of December, he went to the hospital after working just a day of work because he came home swollen everywhere. Blessed be, that the ER doctor promised they would do everything in their power to find out what’s going on with him. Well after a whole week of tests, medications, and labs. We find out that he now has Stage 3 Kidney Disease/Failure brought on by Nephrotic Syndrome. He also was found to be legally blind suddenly only able to see 20/200 in one eye nothing in the other and it couldn’t be fixed through glasses or anything like that, couldn’t work anymore and is facing a lot of pain and difficulty adjusting to the pain and his inability to really see anything. He also has Brittle Diabetes/Type 3 so I give him injections at least 5 times a day. With all the pain from the seizures and with my autoimmune disorder and fibromyalgia flaring up really bad, it’s been extremely difficult to help with the kids when needed and tend to now 2 fully disabled adults. Putting all the sudden loss of income and the inability to get any health insurance for Thomas, it’s been quite the ride on one helluva roller coaster and it’s been really difficult to get back up from each fall. Most of my time is all a blur and taken up recently but with Thomas unable to see his phone and he can’t really see the TV either, I play him books via TTS on Kindle. So listening to the books I play during the day makes me think about and miss the blog-o-verse so much! The best of friends I have met via WordPress and other platforms. I have to admit that I was being a bit of a coward at one point and was so scared to come online and see everyone going through so much and knew my anxiety and overwhelming Empathy couldn’t take it seeing the suffering of any of my friends in the world of blog. I have been overwhelmed with guilt, anxiety, and fear of losing someone else to this pandemic that has stole something from us all and I truly apologize because I should have been showing more support in those rare moments because I know I received love from you guys during some rough times. Not only do I want to apologize to my friends and fellow bloggers but also to my author friends, publishers and platforms for being so behind on book reviews! *hides*

Speaking about my friends in the book industry, not only do I apologize but want to explain a concern I am having that is also putting a damper on reviewing books and this brings me to an explanation and my question…


I have a Kindle Fire and had all my books in my cloud and the Send to Kindle section but my 5 year old son grabbed my tablet and said he wanted to take a picture with it… Well I grabbed it right back and I noticed my Kindle books disappeared inthe main library and then went to the cloud and they were gone too! I mean, hallelujah freaking monkey balls, I was freaking out! About 5,000 books in my regular Kindle library which I am not going to lie that most of them were free ones I got over the years but didn’t change my love for them!!❤ but my review/mobi file books from NetGalley, authors,and publishers were GONE! Okay so they weren’t totally gone, I went into the Amazon app and found them under Device Content but here’s the problem, I wanted all my books back to their proper place but once I started checking books off to get them back where they should be but when I selected a page worth they would all get sent to download and I didn’t have enough space for just 50 or so booksand wouldn’t let me archive the books so that they were there just not downloaded. Also it doesn’t just show the whole name of book or which I ne came from the cloud so it’s been impossible to find a way to get all of them back in the library where they belong! Do any of you good folks have any advice on how to deal with this? I contacted Amazon Support for Fire and was no help at all! So any tips or help would be so much appreciated so I can go through and get these reviews popping and back to where they belong!

With all of my ramblings and explanations of why I am a hot mess! I just wanted you guys know that Dani is still here, sorry for not supporting your amazing blogs like I wish I could have, and sorry for the rambling but you guys know me, I ramble and I really wanted to explain why things have been a hot mess, how I am just trying to get by, and really do miss the blogosohere and hope to be back consistently soon!❤💛 You are all beautiful people, I love you & you rock!!!

Xoxo,

Dani❤

Always!

Happy Thanksgiving!

Hello lovelies! I just wanted to wish everyone who celebrates, a Happy Thanksgiving! If you don’t celebrate then I hope you are doing well and have a lovely day, as well. This is an especially hard year for everyone with the holidays. I know personally I have lost loved ones of all ages & different walks of life and we all have felt pain this year in one way or another. My thoughts are with you and your loved ones!♥️ I know I have been absent but grief and dealing with life has been on the front lines for now. I hope to catch up with everyone soon. More so, I pray that you all are okay and safe! I know the history of Thanksgiving is not the best but just wanted to take out the time to say that I am thankful for you all & my thoughts are with you & your loved ones! Stay safe this holiday, everyone.♥️

My Months of the Battle With Coronavirus

**Post will contain my views on things other may disagree on. I try not to get too political on my blog to keep peace and have dealt with people whom are really disrespectful of what I have to say just because I believe different. This is just a warning that nothing said is personal and just my own views.

First of all I want to say my thoughts and prayers are with everyone during this difficult time. The World has gone nuts and has effected us all in one way or another and hopefully we will see the light at the end of the tunnel sooner than later. When the coronavirus was first announced to the USA it was portrayed as something that was going to go away quickly and was harmless like a germ or something that only effects very few people. With chronic illnesses & being disabled, I stayed at home pretty much 24/7 when I heard about the virus. It wasn’t worth the risk and hey, I was battling agoraphobia anyways. I leave my house once a month to go to the doctor to get a checkup and refills on my medication that is it. I got sick with a sinus infection months ago but was terrified to go to the doctor to get checked but that cleared up but then I had loved ones getting sick. I would hear of their progress but couldn’t visit them because of Covid-19 so I had to sit and wait and that tore me up inside and out. Well they fought there hardest but I ended up losing 3 loved ones under the age of 50. I was drowning in grief and terrified. Everyone in my house stayed at home as much as possible and followed every safety procedure we could but it turned out to not be enough. While we hear the leader of the US spouting off that maybe drinking and/or injecting hand sanitizer might help, taking off all restrictions of protection, saying that 99% of people that get coronavirus is no big deal, seeing racist remarks, trolling the internet calling everyone names, & contracting the coronavirus and saying it’s a “blessing”?! Like really? It’s a blessing you infected people with a deadly virus, wow. Also speaking of this miracle drug that is not FDA approved. Well thanks for bragging how you have this medication available to you while your people are suffering. Anyways back to what was happening with me while this was all going on this month. Well while going through grief and absolutely terrified, I woke up in the middle of the night and felt like I couldn’t breathe. My cough was horrible and was horribly congested that no over the counter medication would work for me. Every time I laid down I felt like I was drowning no matter what position I was in. My fears became reality and was put on quarantine for coronavirus. I couldn’t even understand how I contracted the virus?! But for me it wasn’t this blessing that Mr. Trump speaks about. Nope, I’m sorry I didn’t have the luxury that he did. 99% of us don’t. I was not hospitalized mostly due to my absolute fear of dying in a hospital but was put on breathing treatments right away and two steroid inhalers for every day. Before getting this meds, I was sure I was going to die and was even telling loved ones my final wishes for my kids if I met my end and I am 32 years old! When I got on the treatments, it only took the edge away. The wheezing was there constantly and my fever twerked around whenever it felt the time was right. So feeling a little better, surprise! Others in my household started getting sick!😢 Two weeks into the virus(two weeks ago) I thought things were better. Surprise! I had 3 seizures that were caused by the coronavirus. It doesn’t help that I am epileptic. My family thought they got better too but my son’s father has type 1 diabetes and ended up being rushed and admitted to the hospital and now has his kidneys injured and acting up along with other conditions that are all new. Well two weeks have passed and I look at the numbers of the preventable deaths in the US and it really breaks my heart. I was one of the lucky ones. I am still wheezing and on treatments due to post coronavirus concerns but am now negative for it. But the realization that I could have these concerns from having the virus for the rest of my life is traumatizing. I homeschool my kids because I fear this virus so much and see how teachers are being forced to work in these conditions or they have to sign resignation papers. It’s all just ridiculous and scary. I don’t know how the President can spout on how for 99% of people it’s no big deal. So going to the hospital is no big deal? Losing work is no big deal? Our fear is no big deal? I’m sorry for this rant but know I am not the only one that feels this way and their people whom have way worse stories with this virus. Over 200,000+ people just in the U.S. dead. It’s a nightmare worldwide and our leaders need to wake up! All the time spent on trolling the internet could go to figuring out a way to help the people! Whatever you believe, wherever you are from, & whatever your situation, please take this virus serious and stay safe! Also a big thanks to all our frontline healthcare workers, teachers & all those that are out there doing what they have to with these big risks! Love & Light sent to all…

Security Fails Fixed!

Hey there lovelies! I hope everyone has been doing well with all the craziness that has been going on with the world. I have been helping some of my loved ones that have been affected by the virus and getting over some loved ones that I have loss so I apologize for my absences. Another thing to apologize for is my stupidity when it came to the security of my accounts and page. I had some issues a couple of years ago with things being deleted off my page, someone accessing my social media, messaging apps, and email accounts. So I did what I thought what was supposed to be done in those situations, password changed all over and things went well after that. After things were changed, I had some hard experiences in life so focused on that but I should have paid more attention to things but I thought that because messages were viewed that I haven’t viewed and saw comments that I didn’t remember posting were there. I thought it was my mental illness getting the best of me and didn’t know what was going on. During that time a friend asked to use my Netflix account and what was my password. So since me and this person were very close, I thought nothing of it. Recently, I checked my sent emails and saw conversations with people that I talked to on the phone and there were messages that I didn’t even send that related to the conversation, then remembered what friend was around while I was on the phone and heard what was happened. The stupidity from me is that I used the same password for every account and remembered that I gave only one person a password. It was all quite stressful and feel stupid that I didn’t know what was going on and I still don’t understand why they were doing this as a friend and knew I was struggling. Some reviews and posts have been deleted by this person and they have messaged people pretending to be me in social media and on email. I don’t know all that was deleted but am sorry if any posts I made for someone else like a review or update and such. I have reset all of my passwords and made them all random and kept in a safe place, talked with techs at WP and with social media people, and made sure to remove that person out of my life. I apologize for any inconvenience. This is very embarrassing for me to admit because I care for all of your friendships. Fortunately, they didn’t access this website  much besides being nosey and deleting some things but if you’re review has disappeared after being up here, please let me know. I am also going to be checking through my NetGallley account and emails to check and see what was missing. I know a few scheduled posts were missing and I apologize for any inconvenience to any of my author friends. I miss you guys and hope to be back in my groove soon. And no worries about if it’s really me (that sounds crazy, I know) but nobody can hack in my stuff now and you guys rock! I have missed the World of Blog and I am not letting the trolls get me down anymore. You guys rock! Stay safe & I hope everyone has a fantastic day!❤😍

Update in Dani’s World

Hey everyone! I just wanted to stop in and say hey and that I hope everyone is safe and well. I am so sorry to my friends, authors, publishers, & fellow bloggers for being so absent recently. I know everyone has their stuff & are going through so much because the world has gone a bit crazy and I am deeply sorry I haven’t shown enough support on this platform. Unfortunately, I have been with loved ones who have battled coronavirus and a couple did not win that battle. So while dealing with these obligations & grief, I have been so scared to go online and see more news of people battling and suffering. It has caused enormous anxiety that I am trying to defeat. I also had some technical difficulties this last month when I wanted to come back and post some reviews but WP wouldn’t allow me to sign back on without renewing my domain? Which was all weird because I had credits on my account and they just couldn’t get their stuff straight. Smh! Anyways, I just wanted to extend my apologies and say that you all have been in my thoughts. I will hopefully be making a come back ASAP and am doing my freakin darndest y’all to focus on the positive.❤ You guys rock & stay safe everyone!😍❤💐

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