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Hello friends! I wanted to share something a little more deep about me. Maybe my experience can help you look for brighter days or you can relate in some way or another. Either way thanks for reading my post! I am so thankful to have signed up for WordPress and to have met so many awesome people! You guys rock!😁
Three years ago as of October 16th 2014, I was broken and torn down from a life of constantly chasing my next fix. But that day I decided to get help and change my life. I was fighting a terminal illness(which I survived,obviously) and my son’s father was out in a coma from a horrible car accident. The accident left him in a vegetated state where he only had 6% chance of survival. If he survived, doctor’s believed he would never walk again, talk or eat on his own. My world came crashing down not only was I fighting cancer to save my life, I had my children’s parent in the hospital as a vegetable. These life experiences are what put me over the edge.
At this time, I was already taking opioids for pain and used them recreationally and prescribed but wasn’t that bad off. I guess you would call me a functioning user. I battle with a servere mental illness along with physical health concerns. With everything happening in my life at the time I lost control of my life. I was always finding a way to numb the pain. Not only did I have a very traumatic childhood, I felt my life as an adult continued to suffer. From the sexual abuse I endured from the age of 6 to sexual assault as a young adult leading to the conception of my daughter. So much stuff in between and then my health and the accident. I felt constantly like I was grasping for air. I did things that I am so ashamed of, I wasn’t the mother I should have been, and I made a lot of mistakes.
Luckily, my health got better and so did my children’s parent miraculously. He is able to walk and talk. Sadly, he doesn’t remember what happened the previous day(like 50 First Dates) and he’s in my care. Unfortunately, this blessing didn’t stop my problem until the pain didn’t get numb anymore. I was only using to not get sick. I had to make a choice if I was going to get better or not, if not for myself then I had to do it for my kids.
It’s been 3 years and a couple days and it’s still a struggle. Every day I have to wake up and decide to not be that person I was anymore. I feel like I’m losing it still at times and it’s still so hard especially when I’m in so much physical pain but I do it. I make it, one day at a time. I know this is a private issue but in my life but I really wanted to share because I wanted to let individuals who have been or are in this situation know that there is hope! There is light after all that darkness!🌈 You might feel there is no hope for you but there is. You got this!😊💖👍
Love your message. Thank you so much for sharing this. 🙂
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Thanks so much! I’m glad you like it!!!😊😊😊💖💖💖
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That’s a lot of stuff to deal with all at once. Yours is quite the story of survival, and overcoming. Good for you. You have much to be proud of. 😊
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Thanks so much for your feedback 😀 I appreciate you and it means a lot!😁
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So brave. My husband’s an alcoholic (sober maybe 6 years now). Addiction is a bitch. I’d say congrats, but that feels like you won something. This is definitely a battle, and I’m sure all of your loved ones are proud of you for winning it. Well done.
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Thanks Michelle!!! I really appreciate your comment! 6 years is great! I know me being married to an addict you understand how it goes and I couldn’t agree more: Addiction is a bitch!!!
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Yes, it’s brave to become something new and different – a person you can be proud of. Yes, life is hard, and sometimes it’s too hard, and we cry.
I don’t like to call myself an ex-anything – I say I became a [postive word] non-participant in the manipulations of drugs (and drug purveyors, including the legal ones). I am a new and improved version of the person who fell prey to the escape that was a prison.
thank you for sharing your story. (I hope that made sense – I’m proud of you!)
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Thank you very much for your feedback!!! That’s a great way to put things! I really appreciate your kind words and support😊😊😊
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Congrats on overcoming so many tough things in your life and making it to three years. Here’s to hoping for many more positive years to come. 🙂 I think there are a lot of readers out there that love that escape that reading brings from on thing or another in their lives so you are not alone my friend.
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Thanks so much for your kind words Carrie! I appreciate your support!😊😊😊 I feel like reading is my escape and all time addiction now!!! I love it and am so thankful for my books😁📚
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You are quite welcome! Reading is a great addiction to have, something that is good for you all around. 🙂
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I agree so much better!!! I love it. It saved my life!📚💖
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So brave! Thank you for sharing your story with us. Keep overcoming! ❤
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Thank you very much! That means a lot to me💖 I appreciate your kind words!
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I love this. Stay strong and be positive! ❤️❤️❤️
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Thank you so much for the support and kind words!!!😊😊😊
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I already knew what an incredibly strong woman you were and this just confirms it Dani. I’m so sorry for the the things you’ve gone through. You have my deepest admiration Dear Friend. You truly are an inspiration.😙
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Awww Kim!!! You are the sweetest!!!😊😗 Thank you for your undying support and the kind words💖
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You are an inspiration. Your message is encouraging and inspiring. Lots of love your way. All the best.
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Thank you so much! That means a lot! I was scared to post it but I’m so happy I did with everyone’s kind feedback! I appreciate your kind words😊💖
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Thanks for sharing your story, it’s important to remind ourselves and others why we do it. I’m approaching my six year anniversary and I promise it gets easier with each year that passes. Much love.
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Thank you so much for commenting and your feedback! That’s awesome to look forward to that it gets easier. Thats great 6 years! I appreciate you sharing.😊
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Wow this is heavy, you’ve not had much luck yet.. Stay strong lovely! Thank you for sharing such a personal story!
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Thanks Inge! I really appreciate all the positive feedback 😀I was very scared to share this but figured it might help someone!😊 Thanks again for all your support!
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Thank you for sharing your story with us. This is the best part about social networks – people telling their stories so others hopefully would feel better. Cudos to you for all the work you did and still doing to make your life beautiful. Keep being strong and awesome, in short – keep being you🤘
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Thanks so much Lana!!! Your kind words really touched my heart!!!💖 You are one awesome lady yourself🤘😁I appreciate your support😗
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Thank you for sharing your Journey with us. Everyone struggles with unknown challenges and I try to look past the gruff demeanor or the extra nice demeanor and see that person for who they are in all their flaws, because it is the flaws that make us all Beautiful. Keep up the Great Fight on your Journey. I have suffered or witnessed these challenges you face and I for one find your post inspirational. Thank you, Dani for sharing. P
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Thank you so much for your comment! It really touched my heart. I’m glad you found it inspirational!!😁 I also believe in the beauty in all and in our flaws! 😍 I appreciate you for your feedback and support 😉😎😁
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What an inspiration you are to others Dani. So proud of you and how far you have come. Thank you for sharing and God bless you. One day at a time my friend👍🏻👍🏻👍🏻👏🏻👏🏻👏🏻👏🏻😄😄😄
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Thank you so much Susan! Your comment means the world to me!💖💖💖 God bless you as well! All these sweet and positive comments have made my day😍😉🎊
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You are very brave and a true inspiration. Thank you. MDC
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Thank you so much Denise! That means so much to me!😊
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Thanks for your vulnerability! Your story is powerful! ❤️
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You’re welcome and thank you so much for your support Ashley! It means so much!😊
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Dani, it takes a lot of “guts” to tell others about your addiction. I salute you for your courage. You’re so young to have experienced the pain you’ve endured, along with the daily responsibilities resting on your shoulders every day. “One day at a time” — it sounds so cliche-ist, but it is so true. Here’s wishing you the strength and courage to carry on.
–Michael
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Thanks so much for your kind words Michael! I really appreciate you and the support!😊
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We all need a little pep talk from time to time. Thank you for sharing.
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Thanks so much!!!😊😊😊😊
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Aw lady, what doesn’t kill us makes us stronger, life knocks us down but it’s up to us to get back up and make the most of it, keep strong my friend xx
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Thanks friend! That means a lot! I appreciate your support and comment! 😊😊😊💖💖💖🌈🌈🌈 And your right it just makes us stronger!!!
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I can’t count the number of times I said “Holy shit,” while reading this. Wow. You came through and are still dealing with so much. Thank you for sharing that and your message.
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Thanks so much for your comment! That means a lot! I didn’t even put the most gruesome stuff in there. Lol. We all go through different things. I figure there must be something big planned in my future that needs my strength. I just wish I could have some kind of break though.😓 Thanks again for commenting and your support!
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Thanks for sharing and I’m glad you had the courage to share this. I hope you continue to have this strength and hope. You’re such an inspiration. *virtual hugs and kisses*🤗🤗🤗🤗😚😚😚❤💕
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Thanks so much!!! That means the world to me!!!😊 *Hugs* I appreciate your support!😊
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