*Three Long Years of Sobriety~My Short Story of Recovery*

Hello friends! I wanted to share something a little more deep about me. Maybe my experience can help you look for brighter days or you can relate in some way or another. Either way thanks for reading my post! I am so thankful to have signed up for WordPress and to have met so many awesome people! You guys rock!😁

Three years ago as of October 16th 2014, I was broken and torn down from a life of constantly chasing my next fix. But that day I decided to get help and change my life. I was fighting a terminal illness(which I survived,obviously) and my son’s father was out in a coma from a horrible car accident. The accident left him in a vegetated state where he only had 6% chance of survival. If he survived, doctor’s believed he would never walk again, talk or eat on his own. My world came crashing down not only was I fighting cancer to save my life, I had my children’s parent in the hospital as a vegetable. These life experiences are what put me over the edge.

At this time, I was already taking opioids for pain and used them recreationally and prescribed but wasn’t that bad off. I guess you would call me a functioning user. I battle with a servere mental illness along with physical health concerns. With everything happening in my life at the time I lost control of my life. I was always finding a way to numb the pain. Not only did I have a very traumatic childhood, I felt my life as an adult continued to suffer. From the sexual abuse I endured from the age of 6 to sexual assault as a young adult leading to the conception of my daughter. So much stuff in between and then my health and the accident. I felt constantly like I was grasping for air. I did things that I am so ashamed of, I wasn’t the mother I should have been, and I made a lot of mistakes. 

Luckily, my health got better and so did my children’s parent miraculously. He is able to walk and talk. Sadly, he doesn’t remember what happened the previous day(like 50 First Dates) and he’s in my care. Unfortunately, this blessing didn’t stop my problem until the pain didn’t get numb anymore. I was only using to not get sick. I had to make a choice if I was going to get better or not, if not for myself then I had to do it for my kids. 

It’s been 3 years and a couple days and it’s still a struggle. Every day I have to wake up and decide to not be that person I was anymore. I feel like I’m losing it still at times and it’s still so hard especially when I’m in so much physical pain but I do it. I make it, one day at a time. I know this is a private issue but in my life but I really wanted to share because I wanted to let individuals who have been or are in this situation know that there is hope! There is light after all that darkness!🌈 You might feel there is no hope for you but there is. You got this!😊💖👍

47 Comments on “*Three Long Years of Sobriety~My Short Story of Recovery*

  1. So brave. My husband’s an alcoholic (sober maybe 6 years now). Addiction is a bitch. I’d say congrats, but that feels like you won something. This is definitely a battle, and I’m sure all of your loved ones are proud of you for winning it. Well done.

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  2. Yes, it’s brave to become something new and different – a person you can be proud of. Yes, life is hard, and sometimes it’s too hard, and we cry.
    I don’t like to call myself an ex-anything – I say I became a [postive word] non-participant in the manipulations of drugs (and drug purveyors, including the legal ones). I am a new and improved version of the person who fell prey to the escape that was a prison.
    thank you for sharing your story. (I hope that made sense – I’m proud of you!)

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  3. Congrats on overcoming so many tough things in your life and making it to three years. Here’s to hoping for many more positive years to come. 🙂 I think there are a lot of readers out there that love that escape that reading brings from on thing or another in their lives so you are not alone my friend.

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  4. Thanks for sharing your story, it’s important to remind ourselves and others why we do it. I’m approaching my six year anniversary and I promise it gets easier with each year that passes. Much love.

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  5. Thank you for sharing your story with us. This is the best part about social networks – people telling their stories so others hopefully would feel better. Cudos to you for all the work you did and still doing to make your life beautiful. Keep being strong and awesome, in short – keep being you🤘

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  6. Thank you for sharing your Journey with us. Everyone struggles with unknown challenges and I try to look past the gruff demeanor or the extra nice demeanor and see that person for who they are in all their flaws, because it is the flaws that make us all Beautiful. Keep up the Great Fight on your Journey. I have suffered or witnessed these challenges you face and I for one find your post inspirational. Thank you, Dani for sharing. P

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  7. What an inspiration you are to others Dani. So proud of you and how far you have come. Thank you for sharing and God bless you. One day at a time my friend👍🏻👍🏻👍🏻👏🏻👏🏻👏🏻👏🏻😄😄😄

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  8. Dani, it takes a lot of “guts” to tell others about your addiction. I salute you for your courage. You’re so young to have experienced the pain you’ve endured, along with the daily responsibilities resting on your shoulders every day. “One day at a time” — it sounds so cliche-ist, but it is so true. Here’s wishing you the strength and courage to carry on.
    –Michael

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    • Thanks so much for your comment! That means a lot! I didn’t even put the most gruesome stuff in there. Lol. We all go through different things. I figure there must be something big planned in my future that needs my strength. I just wish I could have some kind of break though.😓 Thanks again for commenting and your support!

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  9. Thanks for sharing and I’m glad you had the courage to share this. I hope you continue to have this strength and hope. You’re such an inspiration. *virtual hugs and kisses*🤗🤗🤗🤗😚😚😚❤💕

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